the Light in my mind is coming back.
there's a lot going on right now - that i just can't wrap my head around. for one thing, I, and 3 of my nerdiest friends, are going to compete in a Spelling Bee for adults. we took a small spelling test online - and got like, 13 or 17 out of 50 -wrong. from my strict, education is perfection background - i feel we have a lot of work to do. yes i know daddy, READ READ READ! according to my daddy, reading would solve everything. and in a sense, true - if everyone was more educated...would we have as many problems as we have today? i don't care to comment - because my free will screws up any educational logic or thought process i have. screws it and leaves it to rot. anyways - i don't really have a purpose to this post. i spent some time making a new masthead - and i think i like it. i wanted to use a picture of me that was so boring and normal - and make it - not so exciting. i think i succeeded. hoody hoo.
i'm also going to pakistan for 2 weeks here pretty soon. i think it's going to change me in ways i can't anticipate - and that's kinda scary. the purpose is mostly to visit the family since my grandfather passed away in March, and to see my grandmother who i hear isn't doing so well. i wish i had known them - i wish i had written more letters to them, and made more of an effort to show that i care about my family. but in essence - i don't think about them. i just think about my own life and what i have to do and accomplish here and... yes - admitting this makes me nauseous and hate myself. the last time i visited family in pakistan was when i was 7 - and i'm sure they've changed and grown into real people... much like i've changed and grown into a real person. i think to visit everyone now will make all the difference in the relationships i will actually get to make - and will inherently change a lot of what i know or have come to know about pakistan, life in pakistan, and life in general.
i'm ready for it. i need this new perspective in life. i need this change.
i just hope they don't try to marry me off - cuz that would not tickle my fancy... it would bump it and bruise it and give it a hideous rash... and i'm quite enamored with my rashless fancy. crazy crackistanis. God love 'em.
i'm also going to pakistan for 2 weeks here pretty soon. i think it's going to change me in ways i can't anticipate - and that's kinda scary. the purpose is mostly to visit the family since my grandfather passed away in March, and to see my grandmother who i hear isn't doing so well. i wish i had known them - i wish i had written more letters to them, and made more of an effort to show that i care about my family. but in essence - i don't think about them. i just think about my own life and what i have to do and accomplish here and... yes - admitting this makes me nauseous and hate myself. the last time i visited family in pakistan was when i was 7 - and i'm sure they've changed and grown into real people... much like i've changed and grown into a real person. i think to visit everyone now will make all the difference in the relationships i will actually get to make - and will inherently change a lot of what i know or have come to know about pakistan, life in pakistan, and life in general.
i'm ready for it. i need this new perspective in life. i need this change.
i just hope they don't try to marry me off - cuz that would not tickle my fancy... it would bump it and bruise it and give it a hideous rash... and i'm quite enamored with my rashless fancy. crazy crackistanis. God love 'em.
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Oh my lovely sarah....
so many comments to make on this post.
1. First of all (and lets face it, most importantly) .... in your mast head you have made some serious lipstick for yourself. I do believe this is the only time I have ever seen your face with such a bold color on your mouth ...(that one time I did your make up for your bithday-go-out-night excluded, of course)
And well.... being the Make-up-ier one of the two of us, I think my opinion counts. I say nice color choice! it really brings out the couch pillows, and well, thats important in a lipstick i always say.
2. A thought for you... Have you ever wondered what music people listen to while reading your post? No? Its strange how the song that happens to be on when you read can lend to the mood. For instance: (now dont throw up when you read this, and for heavens sake do NOT judge me) I was listening to Nick Lachey's new song "Whats Left of Me" - - What?! I feel sorry for the guy that Jess ditched him so I bought his song on iTunes to help him ease the pain a bit...and I like it! so what?!
Anways - I almost cried! I cant believe you are going to Pakistan, im glad though. Family is important. Its strange how you can love and care for people you dont even know that well, and didnt choose for yourself just because they are family.
3. Dear Lord sarah do NOT let them marry you off! There are many boys right here that would be happy to fall in love with you
Now come to amarillo, and visit me and Aiden, we miss you!
hoody hoo
Well, first of all...lovin the masthead. I think your lips are on FIRE...perhaps even Flaming Lips ;)
And secondly, I too am so happy you are getting to go to Pakistani...although, what will I do without my Sarah for two weeks? Will I even survive? The answer to those questions, and more, remains to be seen.
Just a couple thangs:
* I'm feeling you on the family thing... if you have'nt been to Pakistan since age 7, I'm sure it will be quite the experience on so many levels.
* Did I mention I won the James Bickley Elementary spelling bee my 6th grade year? I spelled eggnog dawg.
* I like the masthead son, but it's not as tyte as my 22's spinnin on my pimped out pimpalicious pimpmobile byotch!!! PACE